Monday, April 27, 2009

2009/04/27 准备 Get Ready

昨天是星期天...
也是我们CF的AGM...
当晚有ELECTION下一个学年的COMMITTEE...
结果我就中选了...
而且还是做主席哦....


这一届的CF将会面对与过往全然不同的挑战....
因为这次将会是我们CF第一次正式在校园里面聚会....
我们也可以光明正大的在校园里面开BOOTH招收会员....
由于我们是第一次, 也是第一届,
真的希望神会亲自来带领我们...
让我们知道我们应该做些什么....


而我, 身为主席...
担子也比以前的重了...
这几天...
会慢慢的预备我自己....
去承担这么重的担子了...
不能在像以前那样玩玩下了....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

2009/03/16 我不要了... I Don't Want anymore...

最近心情真的很糟....
在我知道了我3个女儿,
其中2个已经选择要去CYBER,
还有一个也可能会上CYBER的时候,
心里就一直在想一样东西....


为什么每次刚开始慢慢要做好朋友了,
她们都要上CYBER了?
一开始就是从小就一起玩到大的好朋友,
在下来就是干妹妹...
现在就连我3个女儿都要上CYBER了....
唉...
不舍的感觉总会有...
我也不能那么自私...
他们都有他们选择的权利....
我也不能做什么....
就希望他们不管去到哪里,
都不会离开神就好了....
也希望他们不会把我给忘了....
不管他们去到哪里,
至少还有一个人在纪念着他们,为他们默默的祷告,默默的祝福.....



跑太远了...
我都还没有讲我在想的是什么....
我在想,
到底我还要不要去关心那些新来的弟兄姐妹??
我怕当我去关心他们的时候,
慢慢地和他们做朋友的时候,
他们又突然间要上CYBER....
唉....

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

2009/02/25 头痛 Headache

最近很容易就头痛, 很容易就没有了MOOD...
面对着那么多的东西要解决...
不论是学业上的, 还是其他的东西,
都有很多很多要忙的...
搞到我最近真的很累....
有时才靠在沙发, 醒来的时候就已经过了几个小时了...

不过还好,
虽然几忙都好,
至少都还有时间来好好的读经, 祷告....
今天开始,
我也会开始40天预苦期"与耶穌同行"的祷告操练...
希望我真的可以透过这个操练,
更加的明白神的话语...
更加能够学习到更多东西....


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haiz...
recently so easy to feel headache, feel no mood...
facing so many things need to be done...
not only is my studies...and many many more...
these make me feel very very tired...
sometimes jz lying on sofa...
then when i wake up is few hours later dy..
aikss....

luckily...
no matter how busy am i..
i still got time for God...
read Bible, and prays...
starting from today,
i will start a Prayer exercise...
"40 days Walking with Jesus in Lent"
hope i really can learn something from this prayer exercise...






今天的操练:
经文:"人不制伏自己的心, 好像毁坏的城邑没有墙垣"(箴言25:28)
"He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls." (Proverbs 25:28)
主题 : 自己的内心
Focus : My Inner-self
祷告 : 把心敞开, 求主管理我的心
Prayer : Ask the Lord to open my heart, and take control of my life

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

2009/02/24 迷失 Lost

很多时候,
当我们在做一样事情的时候,
我们都会忘记了做那样事情的真正目的....


有些人捐钱,
但是 不是因为真的看到他们的需要,
而只是想要炫耀;
有些人拍拖,
不是因为他们真正的爱对方,
而只是想享受恋爱的滋味...


当然还有很多很多的例子...
我自己本身也试过...
而且还时常都那样子....
做东西, 却不知道做来到底是为了什么....
有时就会为了做, 而做...
并不是真正的明白, 做来是为了什么...
就是这样迷失了方向....

我今天终于学到了,

要从新调整我的心态,

要我从新思考,

到底我做的, 是不是真的讨神喜悦呢?

亲爱的朋友,
你是否有时做东西的时候,
会觉得很累, 很不想继续做下去, 很无心无力呢?
别灰心, 这个时候, 是应该停下脚步,
休息休息了...
来想想看是不是在一开始的时候,
出发点就已经偏离了轨道呢?
停下脚步, 从新调整你的步伐, 你的方向,
然后才继续走下出~
加油~
朋友, 你并不是孤军作战哦~
你身边还有很多很多关心的人~


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many times, when we are doing something,
we always forget what is the real meaning of doing that things...

some ppl make donations,
not because of they saw the needs of the others,
but jz because they want to become famous;
some ppl choose a bf/gf,
not because they love him/her,
but jz because they want to try to have a relationship status...

of course, there are many many more examples...
i am also one of them...
i also always lost when i doing something...
dont even know why i do that...
sometimes jz because other ppl tell me to do that..
then i do it...

today, finally i know...
i need to stop, adjust what is inside my heart...
again, understand the reason why i do that...
again, determine what i did izzit follow the God's Will?

dear friends,
sometimes, when you are doing something,
will you feel tired and feel no more stamina to continue?
feel like you are jz doing it alone...
no one wanna help you?
dont feel despair...
is time for you to stop you steps,
rest for awhile,
think, izzit you already walk into the wrong path from the beginning?
stop, rest, think, then re-plan your steps, and choose the right path,
then only continue to walk...
cheer~~
dont worry friends~
you are not alone in the battlefield~
beside you, still got many many ppl who cares about you~
^_^

Monday, February 23, 2009

2009/02/23 搬家?? Moving??

哈哈...
前几天和朋友出去玩的时候,
讲下讲下就突然间讲到要搬家...
每个听到我讲到我的家4间房有3间房有冷气,
而且租金也不会很贵,
眼睛就突然间亮了起来,
就吵着说要搬来我家..
哈哈...
女生嘛...
果然不是很耐热...
再加上现在天气也真的是很热..
连我自己也差不多不能TAHAN了...
哈哈...
她们竟然还要我去问我的房友要不要搬..
>.<







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hahas...
last few days go out with friends...
and dunno how we chatting, chat chat chat then chat about they wanna move out from ixora...
after they heard i say my house got air-cond and the rental is also not very expensive...
at least cheaper than ixora and with air-cond...
hahas...
then they all say wanna move in to my house dy...
lolz...
girls really cant tahan hot meh?
hahas...
but recently de weather really very hot...
hot until i also almost cant tahan dy...
aiks...
>.<

Sunday, February 22, 2009

2009/02/22

今天算是蛮开心的一天吧....
至少我没有过得很不开心...
嘻嘻...
只是觉得我真的很不会讲话...
虽然你看我很喜欢讲话...
可是一到正经事的时候,
我说的话却往往很难另其他人懂....
要我平时那样有说有笑是可以..
可是要讲正经事的时候,
却无法真正的表达我到底要讲些什么...
唉....
或许这个就是我的缺点啦...



刚才在CF的时候就有谈到一个问题...
到底我现在最渴求的是什么??
我现在到底最想要的是什么??
有很多样咧...
第一样就是钱咯...
现在什么都讲钱..
说真的...
最近家里的经济状况真的很不好...
连这个学期的学费都不懂交不交得出来...
第二样就是时间吧....
因为最近真的有很多事情要忙的....
忙到我都不知道要怎样开始...
结果选择一直逃避...
一直不去想不去做...
唉....



还有...
突然间就被一个明明就厉害过我的人,
叫我SENSEI(老师),
哗....
真的不敢当咧...
我们只是朋友啦...
互相交流就好啦...
要我当你的老师,
我真的没有那种资格咧...
学钢琴学到半半就停了的我...
哪里有资格当一个钢琴那么厉害的人的老师哦~???
哈哈...

不过我已经答应我女儿要教她玩钢琴哦...
看她那么有心学,就教她咯....
哈哈...
我本身也只是半桶水...
就只好尽我所能,
我会的,就教咯...
不会的, 就慢慢研究或者问人咯...
嘿嘿....



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today still can consider as a happy day for me...
erm...at least not bad...
hahas...
jz think that im not good in speaking....
although i like to talk...
but when come to a serious talk like sharing in public....
i become very noob in my speech...
jz make many ppl cannot understand what im talking...
and sometimes i feel that the words come out from my mouth also not the actually what i want to voice out...
haiz...my bad....



jz now at CF, we also discuss about one question:
"what the most do you want/desire to have it now?"
for me, the first one i think is money...
now everything is $$, $$, $$$$....
"no $$ no talk..."
aiks...
and recently my family really facing the economic problems now...
haiz....the tuition fees for this sem i also dunno able to pay it or not...

the second thing is time...
coz recently really have so many things need to do...
make me feel really boring and tiring...
so many times i jz choose to ignore them...
run away from all the busy...
aiks...



and...
suddenly got one pro piano player call me "sensei"(teacher)...
wow...
i really not that pro la...
jz simply play...
actually im jz play very easy and freely de...
hehe...
we are friends ma...
got anything jz share...
no need call me "sensei" la...
aiyo...
and i didnt finish my piano lessons and grade...
jz half pail of water...
hahas...

but i promised my daughter to teach her how to play piano...
although im jz half pail of water...
but since she so willing to learn...
then i jz teach her wat i got and wat i know lo...





P/S:突然间想到一句经节:
"你要专心仰赖耶和华,不可依靠自己的聪明,
在你一切所行的事上都要认定他,他必指引你的路"
(箴言3:5-6)
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths."
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

Friday, February 20, 2009

2009/02/20

今天算是蛮开心的一天...
总算做到了我之前答应嘉的情人节礼物...
那就是煮给她吃...
哈哈...
虽然不是很厉害,
但是至少煮到也不差嘛...
嘿嘿...
我自觉是煮到蛮好吃的...
=P


其实...
也有些事正烦着我的....
开始会有很多的ASSIGNMENT要做了...
这个学期我拿6科,
就有6个以上的ASSIGNMENT要做...
唉...
又要开始赶我的期中考...
然后又要准备CAMP的东西...(http://www.wretch.cc/blog/mycf/21347894)
又要准备诗班巡回的东西...
更可怕的是,
学校的CHRISTIAN SOCIETY 突然之间又要我去做副文书....
WASAI....
KIA SI LANG LEH...


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today is a happy day for me and pjia(my gf)...
because i finally cook for her...
as a late valentines day present~
hehe...
although im not pro in cooking..
but jz feel that im also not bad~~
XD


actually...
the days coming got many things that make me feel terrible...
because there are many assignments need to rush dy...
this sem im taking 6 subjects...
so, i have more than 6 assignments need to do...
aiksss...
and i still need to prepare for my midterm exam..
prepare for the CF Camp...(http://www.wretch.cc/blog/mycf/21347894)
prepare for the choir tour this year...
and the most scary is...
suddenly MMU Christian Society propose me to become the assistant secretary...
aiksss...
so many thingss...
pengsan... (@.@)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

2009/02/19

哗...
最近天气都很热...
也不知道是不是天气热的缘故,
搞得我们最近的脾气都很不好...
一直都在吵架...
不过都还好...
现在总算都没事了...


其实最近还有一件事...
就是这个SEM也是我3个宝贝女儿的ALPHA 3RD SEM...
也就是说,
她们要选择上BETA真正MAJOR的科目了...
很开心的是她们3个都选择和她们的DADDY MUMMY 一样的科目...
那就ACCOUNTING...
但是ACC两边的CAMPUS(MELAKA,CYBER)都有OFFER....
所以她们也正在烦着到底要选择继续在马六甲,还是上CYBER...
已经肯定了的是,
我最小的宝贝的女儿---雁雁,
已经肯定会上CYBER了...
其他两个女儿还在考虑中....


虽然心里还蛮希望她们可以留在马六甲的,
但是,不管她们选择在哪里,
我都还是一样会支持她们的....
毕竟人各有志...


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wah...
the weather is so hot recently...
maybe is the hot weather make us feel very bad mood...
and keep quarrel and argue with each other...
but now finally ok already...


actually...there is one more thing...
my 3 daughters now is in 3rd of their alpha year(foundation)...
so is time for them to choose their future majoring course...
im happy that they had chosen the same path with their daddy and mummy...accounting...
but accounting course, melaka and cyber campus also have offer....
so they also confusing dunno wanna stay in melaka or cyber campus to continue their studies...
only my youngest daughter---yannyann
she confirm will go to cyberjaya...
and other 2 daughters still thinking...


haiz...
although in my heart got abit wish them can stay in melaka..
but..no matter which path they choose,
i will always support them....

Sunday, February 15, 2009

2009/02/15

哈哈....
昨天是情人节...
没想到还是自己一个人过....
没关系啦...
反正她也是有事情做的嘛.....
我也没有怪她...
只要两个人在一起的时候都没有吵架的话,
那么每天都是情人节了...


今天突然想到一句话....
情人节是一年里面,
全世界最多人说谎的一天吧~??
哈哈...
就只是头脑突然想到这句话....
只是想和你们分享....
因为反正问了也不能得到答案的..
哈哈...


新的一个星期又要开始了...
刚才在CF的时候,
也觉得不错一下的咯...
看到有那么多的新人....
希望他们都可以每一个星期都参与我们...
一起在主里团聚....
也希望下次,
嘉也可以一起来...



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hahas...
yesterday is valentines day...
celebrated it alone in Melaka..
hahas...
nvm la..
she also is really got things to do...
actually...
if everyday when we together without fighting and argueing...
then everyday is valentines day for us dy...


today suddenly think of a question,
izzit valentines day is the day when the most of the lying words speak out by the world?
hahas...
nvm la...
this question also is jz wanna share with you...
also cant get answer de..
hehe..


a new week is coming...
jz now at the CF,
feel quite good and quite happy...
coz saw alot of new ppl there...
hope that they can enjoy with us and come join us next week~
of course...
hope my girl friend also can join us next time....








附: 双语的部落格你们还习惯吗~??? 如果你们有什么觉得可以改善的地方可以跟我讲哦~ 哈哈...当然, 如果要称赞的话也可以哦... XD

P/S: you still can used to my Blog with dual language~?? if i got anything can improve de you must tell me o.. hahas... of course, if you got anything or any words wanna praise me also can o~~ XD

Saturday, January 24, 2009

2009/01/24 DOWN...

唉....
每个人放假回家都是一件很开心的事...
但是...对我来说...
其实也没什么大不了...
每次回到家...
看到家人一直在吵架...
有时真的很不想回家了....
唉....

再加上上学期的成绩刚出了...
看到自己的成绩...
哈哈....
心情就更加不是很好了....
明明在考试的时候...
已经尽力了...
而且也觉得我应该也有不错的成绩....
往往每次都令我失望了...
在想...
下学期..
是否还要不要在这样用工的去读书??

看到我女朋友考试也考得不错...
再看回我自己...
真的会觉得有点很不能接受自己的无能...
每次考试...
她都是那个很担心她自己考得很不好...
可是每次她都会考好过我...
哈哈...
真的是可笑...

不过再想想..
还好我的女朋友还考得不错...
我的3的女儿也考得不错....
我已经很欣慰了...
还好我女儿没有"遗传"到我这个酱不会读书的DADDY...
这点像她们的MUMMY多点...
哈哈...



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haiz...
everyone feel happy when it is holiday and they can go home...
but for me..
it is nothing special and is nothing to be happy....
coz everytime back home...
seeing my family argueing and argueing...
this make me feel very annoying and no more mood to stay at home...
sometimes i really prefer to stay in Melaka alone although every of my friends went back hometown...
haiz...

one more thing...
last sem result out dy...
and my result really very bad...
this make mood more down...
aiksss...
i had already done my best dy....
but still get this result...
haiz...
now still thinking....
whether next sem still wanna work hard or not??

my gf get a quite good result...
and sometimes...
i will feel like cant accept the uselessness of mine...

why everytime she is the one who keep worrying her result after exam until didnt sleep well...
and im the one who try all my best to console her...
and the result is she get better result than me...
haiz...
it is so embarassing....

nvm la..
seeing she get a good result...
i also feel very happy le...
futher more...
3 of my daughters also get a good result...
really feel happy with them...
luckily they didnt get genetic of the uselessness of their daddy...
this..they are more like their mummy...
hahas...

Saturday, January 17, 2009

2009/01/17 对或错? Right or Wrong?

已经几天没有来写了...
这几天都在想着一个问题...
一个对和错的问题...



前几天,
我老姐突然间来问我,我的女儿到底是谁哦...
然后我便告诉她真相咯...
相信很多读者也奇怪吧?
我今年才20岁,怎么会有3个女儿了呢?
那么快??
哈哈...
我就在这里说清楚吧...



其实我那3个女儿呢, 都只是小我一岁而已...
她们其实是我教会的姐妹来的...
只是有一次,
谈谈下天,不知怎么会谈到她们要找男朋友咯...
然后我就讲了一句话咯...
"哈哈,你们要找男朋友啊?? 找了记得要带来给我们这些家长看哦..."
就这样,她们不就叫我DADDY咯...
然后我便成了她们的DADDY了咯...




还没说完呢...
老姐知道了真相过后,
就把我骂了一顿...
说这种关系不好...
虽然说都是教会的弟兄姐妹,
但是做兄弟姐妹就好了...
做DADDY和女儿就太过火了...
还说什么没有眼看,没有耳听现在的年轻人的态度了...
讲到好像很大件事那样...
我问她到底为什么不可以?
她又不要答我...
还讲她现在气在头上,不想和我讲那么多...
AIKSS...
我都不知道到底怎么啦...
唉...
我自问这么做没有不对妥嘛...
难道真的做错了吗~??



很多时候,
我也会一直犹豫着...
我做的东西,是对的吗?
但是,大多数的时候,
我都得不到答案...
也有很多时候,
看到其他人做的东西,
也会有很多的疑问...
也会在想,他们这么是否真的也是对的呢~??
很遗憾的,我也得不到答案....
最重要的是,我从来没有后悔过我收了3个宝贝女儿~!!




P/S: 由于有些朋友的要求,所以这次开始我都会用双语来写我的心情日记...^^





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Already few days didnt come update my blog le...
these few days i was keep thinking a question...
a question about Right or Wrong...

Last few days,
my laojie suddenly come ask me...
who is my daughters?
of course i told her the truth...
i believe that some of readers also will have a question..
when did i already have 3 daughters where i only 20 years old?
hahas...dun worry....
i will explain to all here...



Actually, all my 3 daughters are jz one year younger than me...
they are actually sisters in my church (Malacca Lutheran Church) ...
the story is start from a day,
when we are chatting,
we chat chat chat...then chat until they say they wanna find a boyfriend...
then i jz kidding with them...
"hahas...wanna find boyfriends ar?? then after you find dy must come let parents see see o.."
then they ask me: " huh? parents? when did you become our parent o? then you are our daddy ar?"
hahas...
thats is how they become my daughters...



oh ya...continue the story...
after my laojie know the truth...
then suddenly she scold me pulak...
she say is not good to have this kind of relationship (daddy and daughters)...
she said...we are already is brother and sister in christ...
that is enough already...it is too over if we become daddy and daughters...
she also said that she has no eyes to see and no ears to hear nowadays the youngsters attitude...
but i still dun understand why cant i do that?
i didnt feel anything wrong wor...
she also didnt explain to me much...
jz said she is very angry...then dun wan explain to me le...
aikss...
am i really did wrong?

sometimes i really confuse...
dunno wat i did is right or wrong...
unfortunately...most of the time i cant get the answer...
sometimes..
saw what my friends've done...
i also dunno is right or wrong...
no one can answer...
no one knows...
only God knows what is right and wrong...
nevermind...
the most important thing is that...
i never regret to have 3 baby daughters~!!


P/S: hahas...finally my blogs now have english version le...my english is not good de o...hope you all dun mind...^_^

Monday, January 12, 2009

2009/01/12 新年计划 Plans in Year 2009

虽然已经开始放假算是3天了,
但是我今天才回到我自己的家乡,
也就是马口...
哈哈...



在车上的时候,
就有和我的老友(良辉)聊到关于我们的2009年的计划...
其实我在2009年,
只有一个很简单想要达到的一个目标,
就是要常常喜乐,不住地祷告,凡事谢恩...(帖前5:16-18)
这就是我想要达到的目标啦...
哈哈...
虽然我知道不容易...
但是我还是希望我可以达到这个目标...
希望明年的今天,
我是可以在数算今年一整年,主在我身上的一切恩典...

给在看我的心情日记的朋友们,
希望你们在2009年也有你们的计划喔..
在此,也希望你们的计划都可以完成喔...
如果你们不介意,
也可以和我一起分享你们的计划喔~
^_^

Sunday, January 11, 2009

2009/01/11 开始 Start

夜晚的海风很冷...
特别是当你一个人的时候....
看着人家双双对对的, 一家人的...
就更加觉得自己只有一个...
不知道为什么..
思念的感觉越来越重了...

也正因为这样,
一个人吹着海风,
听着其他4个朋友在谈一些我不是很有兴趣的东西(钓鱼),
我也想了很多东西...

有时真的觉得我很大男人主义一下的咯...
常常我主动关心别人的时候, 不管是男的还是女的都没关系,
但是看到她关心别人的时候, 反而会有少少吃醋咯...
有时觉得她对其他人, 好像还比对我好...
不知道是不是我想太多了?还是我要求太高?
难道要学会放心, 放胆, 放手,真的那么难吗?

看到别人的孩子,大约有2,3 岁吧...好可爱喔...
看着看着,想着想着...
突然间又几想要自己生个来抱抱喔....
虽然我已经有3个"契女"了...
但是她们都太大了...不能抱...
哈哈...她们也少了那种小孩子才有的纯真...
不过真的感谢主...
至少让我还有一个我爱她,她也爱我的女朋友...
还有3个活泼可爱,生性好动,人见人爱,车见车载 的乖女儿...
哈哈...想到这里,有觉得我已经比很多人幸福了...
^_^

其实还有2件事情影响我的心情的....
其中一件就是我的干妹妹已经去了CYBER了...
不过我SMS她,她都不要回我...
我也不知道为什么她会这样子...
我也不知道是不是我做错了什么令她误会?使到她不要睬我?
唉....算了....反正猜下去我也不会知道答案....

第二件事情就是刚才我的朋友竟然想趁我在边吹海风,边在想东西的时候,
把我一个人丢下,
他们自己走人...
唉...一场老友...要这样子对我咩?
zzz....


P/S: 好久没有写心情日记了..突然吹了海风过后, 有一种冲动想把自己的心情写下来..所以一回来就CREATE了这个ACC...哈哈..